Sometimes I wonder if I listen to sad music because it’s the only way I can identify and feel my emotions. Most of the time I just don’t know how to understand what I’m feeling because the main sensation is utter panic. I’ve been feeling like the world is crashing down for as long as I can imagine. I used to look up at the sky in my earliest memories and feel a sense of doom lingering over me like my world would implode at any second. There’s nuclear bombs, people that will ruin your life for a moment of pleasure and constant yelling and loud noises. I don’t know peace.
The world becomes softer as I get older.
I wish my younger self knew.
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