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I’ve worked so hard my whole life to build a world where I belong and I am recognized. I thought I could only find that in a life partner for a long time but I have somehow found that in an entire community. I feel unworthy of the connections I have made because I didn’t realize I could belong just for being myself. I have made a name for myself in the midst of the chaos. I don’t belong and at the same time I fit in. And now that I’ve finally found what I’ve been searching for, I feel so tired. Not in a negative way. But in a way when you’re meditating and you can finally just sit with yourself and be in the present. I can finally just sit and be alone, but I am never lonely. I am finally loved for who I am and not what I bring to the table. I’ve been searching for this feeling for so long but I have finally found it. It’s felt like ages.